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Jan 1st

basically whats going on

 *4 days ago* 
me: mom can i go see shannon before the break ends her mom offered to take me
mom: thats creepy why are you so attacthed to her why is she obsessed with you why are you dating a girl why does she live 4 hours away does her mom drink shes fucking weird i dont like her i hate her you dont even go to school you dont deserve anything your never giong to get better you just slit your wrist a couple days ago why should i let you be happy you dont deserve it
me: ill do anything ill literally never ask to see her again until i do something to deserve it i know i havent been the best daughter but im just begging you 
mom: clean ur room and ill ask ur dad
 *present day*
me: so mom my room is spotless can you ask dad please
mom: youre stupid ok whatever hes gonna say no what are you gonna do if he says no
me: cry
 *mom asks dad*
 *i hear them talking*
 *i go upstairs and cry*
 *dad yells at me cuz he thinks im cutting myself*
dad: WHY SHOULD I LET YOU SEE THAT DYKE I DONT LIKE HER I DONT EVEN KNOW HER I DONT KNOW HER FUCKING MOM YOU'RE JUST GONNA FUCKING HAVE SEX AND DO DRUGS AND FUCKING I DONT KNOW WHAT HER HOUSEHOLD IS LIKE SHE LIVES FUCKING 4 HOURS AWAY YOUR ASKING SO FUCKING MUCH FROM ME FUCK NO ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID YOU DONT DESERVE THIS YUO HAVE TO STOP FUCKING BEING A DROPOUT RETARD FUCKING IDIOT ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID FUCK NO